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[12 Sep 2005|07:47pm] |
HAVE YOU____________... THIS SUMMER 2005
-had a party? no i did in june though
-gone to a party? yes
-spent the night with someone? yes
-laughed until your stomach hurt? yes
-gone on a vacation? yes
-where? florida and lbi
-tanned? yes
-went to a camp? no
-asked someone out? no
-gotten fired? noo
-gone swimming? yes
-went to the movies?yes
-gone shopping? yes
-Had a job? no
-gotten really bored? yes
-gotten sun burned? yes
-been outside during a lightning storm? no
-Been to another state? yes
-been to another country? nope
-changed someting about your appearance? yes dyed my hair
-been to the hospital with an injury? no just the doctor
-commited a crime? no
-gone on a road trip? yes atlatic city with kim
-had a girlfriend or boyfriend? broke up with one, started dating aontoher
-dumped a girlfriend or boyfriend? no
-Been in trouble with the cops/parents?no
-had a horrible moment? yes
-gone skinny dipping? no
-made a new friend? yes
-lost a friend? ehhh
-missed a friend? yes
-Slept under the star?no
-stayed out till past midnight? yeah
-drank? yes
-smoked? nope
-thought about school? a bit
-been to the beach? yeahhh
-gotten in a fight? yeahhh
-gone to a club? yes
-gone to a carnival? yes
-gone to a bonfire?no
-gone to jail? no
-been hurt by someone you love? yes
-thought about a special someone? yes
-slept with someone of the opposite sex(not sexually)? yeah
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[10 Sep 2005|02:08am] |
im at aarons
im at aarons
im at aarons
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| who can say if ive been changed for the better...because i knew you...i have been changed for good |
[07 Sep 2005|05:39pm] |
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today was the 2nd day of school
its pretty lame
i guess its not that bad
i have most lunches with like liz and kim and tina which is cool
my classes arent bad
my math teacher said "sucks for you" today and krista and i found that funny
i dont like that teacher
i love tvp its my new favorite class
2 more days till i get to go and see aaron, i cant wait. im going to meet amanda haha and the rest of the freinds which is cool im really excited.i wish liz could come with me, she will have to come one time. i wanna meet dave when im there haha. and be like LIZ I MET DAVE. haha. that kid is sketchyyyyy.
Last night was the pep rally it was okay. kinda lame. whatever its something.
im upset i cant go to homecoming and that i cant bring aaron with me to go. i have my uncles 50th birthday party which actually should be really cool but id rather be slutting up with liz haha...at least her mike and kim will have fun at kaylins sweet 16.
my ben folds fan club stuff came in the mail...my happiness just up by like 1000<333
im loving my hair this color...i might do it a bit more next time just so it evens out a little more
who knows
my hair is being cut next week i think
who knows to that again
thats it kids
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[06 Sep 2005|05:12pm] |
Okay so today was the first day of school and liz and i looked hott.
chea man its becauese we are hott.
so yea we had our sweet prepster outfits on and we looked quite hot.
we are the team brownie haha
so otherweise there isnt much else going on.
i have awesome people in my classes
1 with liz
1 with tella
2 with krista
2 with mike
1 with kim
1 with tina
its awesome stuff. this year is going to be great.
"and my hairs a mess even when its straight, so what, im better off every day when im standing in the pouring rain i think about you and everything is alright"
oh aaron<3 haha
liz and i =had an amazing talk at johnny rockets yesterday as she eye fucked people...yesterday was just so much fun. oh liz i love ya dear.
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[05 Sep 2005|08:24am] |
So yesterday i didnt do all that much during the day, my dad and i went driving for a bit which i love because most of the time he dosent bother me when i drive only if i need to realize something with of course any parent does. Then i came home and just kinda did some things around the house chilled out and showered.
Ross and Brian and there parents came over for dinner wich is always fun because the three of us are like bfferz and i love them.
Brian and i went to see wedding crashers with liz and tina and it was so funny its unbelieveable liz and i couldnt stop laughing.
So today consists of a Liz and Sam day which are fun.
this day includes:
-manicure/pedicure
-the mall
-dying my hair
-and most of all at some point liz and i eating
haha
so this weekend im going to aaron's, im so excited, like i cant even wait. him living in philli wont be the easiest thing ever but we can do it, whatever neither of us seem to mind this sleepover thing we got going on. oh boy am i happy camper now<3
Today is the fab's birtday. hes 49. got my dad is getting old. i cant beleive my dad was 33 when i was born. and he had black hair which he tried to re-enact at my sweet 16 and that was really funny.
im kinda excited about school now, other then the fact that i didnt read one of the books i have to make up the assignment later and thats going to take up time haha...im ready to go. liz and i are gunna rock it with the hair that we changed and it should be sweet. i miss people.
This year liz and i said is going to be amazing and we are going to have so much fun, no drama like last year or freshman year just a kick ass time. were juniors now you only get one shot at this and after this year we only get only get one shot of being together. no need to ruin it over stupid things. juniors 06' babbbyyyyy<3
you can fucking sodomize a duck
meg figured it out
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[04 Sep 2005|10:24am] |
OKay so yesterday i went with the FH team to the scrimmage because i have to learn how to do the scoring but i didnt have to do i just watched the games and talked to Liz when she wasnt playing and aaron and i had a really odd text conversation about things that i cant even remember anymore.
Yea so then last night i went over to the Reichs for dinner and Meg and her family were there which is awesome because i love my meg. We were just kinda chilling out talking then Mike came and we had some cool conversations and then after dinner we decided to go into town and get ice cream so we walked there and somehow meg ended up in a shopping cart and we pushed her from town all the way back to matts. and then john beck came to visit us and when he left we layed out on the front lawn on blankets it was really cool.
p.s. do you know how to sodamize a duck? haha
I think its funny how childish people can be, i dont believe that there isnt a way that two people that used to be so close could still be friends. Whateve rthey dont have to hang out or even look at each other but if you used to care about someone so much, why do you all of a sudden not even care how they are? I think its funny, it also shows the lack of maturity in people.
So school will be starting tuesday which i guess im ready for which is good but like i didnt see a lot of people all summer which sucks because i love them all. but like no one made efforts to see eachother this summer and that kinda sucked. i miss you all.
I have come to realize that i have just about some of the best friends in the world. I mean ok sure they screw up, we argue, blah blah blah. Thats natural. But at the end of the day i know my friends are there for me which is amazing. I love them all.
Liz, if you didnt already know it. I love you. and i want you to be happy.
thats it fuckers.
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| when you tried to build me up with the wrong words...all it did was kill me |
[02 Sep 2005|02:42pm] |
okay so i decided that i kind of miss updating this a lot so im really going to try and update more.
Lets see whats going on...
So Liz decided to set me up with her friend Aaron, and so he came to visit me from Philli and stayed at the house and it worked out really well because well we are going out haha. It makes me really really happy because pat of this summer really sucked breaking up with matt and all but in the end im happy so who cares right? right!
Yea so jackie apologized to me and liz. i dont want to get into it but yea.
Summer is almost over now and i was like cool we are going back to school and i get to see everyone but then i realized that the people that i really want to see i guess i saw this summer anyway so it dosent really matter. i had a pretty good summer with my friends kim and i did some cool stuff. liz and and i had fun. it was all good in the end.
junior year is going to be amazing i can tell.
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[31 Aug 2005|11:38am] |
Okay so lets see
at the moment i am in the guest room with aaron because hes odd and brought his laptop here with him and so we are both sitting here on our laptops...dorky yes?
well lets see aaron and i are now going out..awesome i know right?
we love liz so much haha
thats it
i love you all
and if you go to nellies...find the brown haired waitess and just say "put it right there"
she will think your a jerk
or matt reich
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[02 Jul 2005|11:49pm] |
I dont know anymore.
I really dont.
I miss part of my life that was 5 months ago.
I think now that it is summer its going to be easier to bring that back.
I hope so.
I love my girls so much.
I dont think they all know that, which makes me sad.
But i dont think some of them want to know that.
I guess what was written then dosent matter now, but it still bothers me. It should.
I never really realized any of it, which makes it worse.
I didnt realize they all felt like i didnt care about them anymore because of matt.
I love him and he makes me happy and i hope thats important to someone and im sorry if they felt like i didnt feel the same way about them anymore.
My girls are some of the best friends i have ever had, and im sorry.
Liz-im sorry that you felt like you had to write all that stuff in those entries. I wasnt aware how much all of that was affecting you. i am going to make a concious effort to not text matt anymore while out with you, or the rest of you. I want to be close again, and i dont see why we cant. we seem to have put all that stuff you thought behind us within the last week. maybe its because your at COTW while im writing this that it seems that we are getting along so well. your one of my best friends and i truley am sorry that you feel this way. and yes i do need you. because i have told you things about me that no one else in the world knows, because i entrust you with those secrets, because i always thought we had a truley special bond. by the time you read this i dont know what you are going to think. i dont know if this is going to make you more angry at me if you still are. or if it is just going to make you say oh well fuck it all if she knows what she was doing was bitchy. i hope its the second one because i now see it all from the side, and your totally right. i did neglect you and jackie. and im sorry.i truley am sorry. i hope this can just be something that we go through, and i learn from. always sam<3
i kinda feel better now that i apologized. i guess i just have to wait a week for her to come home and read it.
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[22 May 2005|03:50pm] |
ive decided that im going to try and update this thing now no matter how few people read it.
i guess my life used to be far more exciting because i used to write every second of my life down here.
but id have to say that i wasnt as happy then as i am now, because i have matt<3.
i love him so much, hes the best thing that could have happend to me.
its amazing.
its great.
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[15 May 2005|09:01pm] |
wow LJ used to be the thing and now i dont think half the people who used to update to. its all about myspace now. everyone these day is a myspace whore.
there really is nothing important in my life to report.
i just wish things didnt hurt so much sometimes.
anyway
thats it
sam<3
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[07 Apr 2005|05:46pm] |
"...I remember now, i know the exact moment when i first realized that i loved you. I remember it as clear as ever, and for the first time i think i understand. You werent around that week, i mean come on we all know that things can change. But they didnt. That week i carried on, I did fine. I never thought for one second that i had to worry about you being away. Not for one second. Until you got back. Then i worried, and i thought. I thought about how time can change things, even in a week, even in a day. But i didnt let that bother me. Until i saw things i didnt want to see, read thigns i didnt want to read, and most importantly, thought things i never wanted to think. You were gone. For a whole entire week, with people that werent me having fun with girls who were better then me. Then i wondered, how you could possibly have feelings for somebody that makes you worry. But the truth was i wasnt worried. I was scared. Scared that everytime you looked at her, a part of you forget me. That the way you look at me, is the way you look at her. That that look you get when you look at me, the look that was the reason i first knew i had feelings for you, was the same look you gave her. It gave me butterfly's that look. And the second that i realized how unbelievably jelouse i was...that was the second i knew i loved you..."
-you wish you knew...
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[24 Mar 2005|10:32am] |
due to my concusion.
i dont really remember much at all.
please jog my memory.
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[25 Feb 2005|11:15pm] |
So lets see the whole vacation so far...
Friday-Monday:Lake George with the Ludwigs and Mom's Birthday on Monday
Tuesday:NyC with Jackie Matt and James
Wednesday:Hung out with Jackie, Poker night at her aunts where we spent the night
Thursday:Hung out with jackie all day.guitar lesson.Went to Liz's house
Friday:Hung with Jackie.Jackie Liz and Jen hung at my house.
Vacations been fun actually.
Matt's been away.
I miss him.
Let's see.
Im getting good at the guitar.
Yay for me.
Kim comes home sunday =).
I miss her.
I want to go and watch Fight Club.
Maybe i will.
I want to go and drink my dragonfruit Vitamin Water.
But i dont have any left.
Oh well.
Peace Fuckers.
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| jelousy turning saints into the seas, swimming through sick lullabies chocking on your alibis... |
[22 Feb 2005|09:37am] |
So i am now home from lake george and it was fun. We left on friday and i made jackie and i frozen pizza to eat in the car. and mommy L gave me this funny box to put the pizza in and i was like Jackie look, pizza in a box...wait pizza always comes in a box. so then we watched the first movie of the sound of music and i fell asleep. we got there around midnight. saturday we ate and then went to the winter carnival and watched the races on the lake. then we did some shopping. and then mommy L took jess jaclyn and i snow tubing we came home and ate dinner and hung out. Sunday was jackies birthday and we went to lake placid for the day it was so amazing. then we came home at dinner. drank champagne and played spades. monday we came home and then i went to a movie and dinner with my parents and ben because it was my moms birthday.but jaclyn and i wish liz could have came with us.
so today i am going into the city with jaclyn matt and james. should be a good day.
peace fuckers.
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[16 Feb 2005|10:05am] |
Okay so Valentines Day was fun.
Liz Jackie Veronica Kim and I went to IHOP for dinner on a romantic date and we spent $75 dollars between all 5 of us menustrating women.
Yesterday Jackie started walking over to my house and on the way lois and i picked her up then she came over here and we started to play trivial pursuit pop culture and then my dad ben jackie and i went to nellies.
then i had singing.
and came home and hung out and stuff.
So this morning when i woke up i felt really crappy and my mom took my temperature and sure enough i have one. i feel like total crap. i hate being suck.
Peace fuckers
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[12 Feb 2005|09:21am] |
I constently try to write here but for some reason i always feel like i dont have anything to say or dont want to share what i have to say with anyone/
But lets see whats been going on in my life...
Wednesday dad informed us that he sold allmake appliance. thats really sad actually i know a lot of people think its not a big deal and that i shouldnt care as much as i do. but i think its because not everyone understands. i have a lot of people there that we are close to, who have known me my whole life and who treat me like family as i treat them like family. that place was owned by my opa then my opa+my dad then my dad and it was next going to be my dad+ben then evenually ben. its how it was going to work.its not that im dissapointed in my dad because i guess i cant be i mean his health should come first but i think hes giving up to easily and its annoying. sure im mad. in time ill get over it, but for now im mad.
Thursday after school jackie and i went to the mall and did some shopping it was quite fun. we ran into her lifegurding buddies. ate pretzels. and sat in the picture booth after taking our picture for about 15 minutes. then i came home.
Friday kim and i went to visit whs after school and then we took an adventure around the ghetto that is waldwick and went to allmake. then we went to my house. mrs.raimondi picked us up we got kims rings and came back to my house. then rachel kim and i went to pallisades couldnt decide on a movie so we ate at stir crazy and then walked around and came home. then kim left. and rachel and my mom and i sat on the floor outside my room drinking wine and thinking what everyone in the family would say if they could only tell the truth for 24 hours.
now rachel is still sleeping.
i have to go the gym at 12.
the dance is tonight.
thats my life.
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[08 Feb 2005|03:53pm] |
F*I*R*S*T*S
first best friend: elyssa
first break-up: erik
first screen name: grease174
first self purchased album: barry manilows greatest hits
first funeral: never been to one
first pet: cheerio the fish
first piercings/tatoos: my ears when i was 8
first true love: tim
first musician you remember hearing in your house: frank sinatra
L*A*S*T*S
last cigarette: about 30 seconds ago...not
last car ride: coming home from guitar
last kiss: um matt laiks i think
last good cry: two saturdays ago with jackie
last movie seen: fight club
last beverage drank: iced tea
last food consumed: the increadble edible cell projects
last phone call: deirdra
last time showered: this morning
last annoyance: ben
last disappointment: decisions i have made
last time wanting to die: a while ago
last time scolded: i cant remember
last shirt worn: my pink long sleeve flower shirt
last word you said: bye
c.d in your cd player: david bowie
what color socks are you wearing? white
what color of underwear are you wearing? pink
whats under your bed? another bed
what time did you wake up today? 6.45
C*U*R*R*E*N*T
current mood: hungry
current music: dance magic dance, david bowie
current hair: down and straight
current longing: a buritto
current favorite artist: the cars
current book(s): confessions of a not it girl
____YOUR LIFE____
[x] they call me: samantha
[x] also: sam, sammy, raye, mantha, silly sammy, jam,sammycakes, antha
[x] sex: hottie
[x] my first breath of air: july 21 1989
[x] age: 15
[x] status: single
[x] occupation: umm shopper? haha none
[x] nationality:german english and some other things
[x] best buddies: Jaclyn Liz Matt Mike
___REWIND____
[x] most memorable memory: medevial times haha
[x] worst?: last november
[x] first word uttered: whos that
[x] first bestfriend ever?: elyssa
____FAST FORWARD____
[x] college planning to go: cia..the cooking school
[x] future resident of: new york
[x] wedding: one from a fairy tale
[x]children: 1 boy and 1 girl
[x] looking forward to: florida with jaclyn, orlando with liz jackie and tella, jackies birthday, feb break, the summer
[x] NOT looking forward to: any test i have to take ever
____PLAY____
[x] feeling: tired
[x] Listening: zak and sarah
[x] doing: this quiz
[x] craving: buritto
[x] thinking of: how i like someone
[x] hating: the fact that this room is cold
____LOVE?____
[x] love is: painful
[x] first love: tim
[x] current love: im not in love
[x] love or lust?: love
[x] best love song: theres to many
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time? no
[x] when love hurts, you: cry to jackie eat ice cream and watch movies
[x] true or false - all you need is love: false.
[x] have you ever been in love?: yea
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: no
____THE OPPOSITE SEX____
[x] turn ons: nice body, nice cologne, nice eyes, smart, funny, cute
[x] turn offs- cocky, smelly, annoying
[x] what kinda hair style?: anything as long as it looks good
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you? make me feel like im worth it
[x] where do you go to meet new people? myspace whore, places with elyssa
____PICKY PICKY____
[x] dog or cat: dog
[x] short or long hair: long
[x] innie or outie: innie
[x] sunshine or rain: sunshine
[x] moon or sun: sun
[x] basketball or football: baseball
[x] righty or lefty: righty
[x] hugs or kisses: kisses
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 10 aquaintances
[x] bf/gf or best friend: best friend
[x] tv or radio: tv
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: starbucks
[x] mcdonalds or burger king: mcdonalds
[x] summer or winter: summer
[x] written letters or e-mails: written
[x] disney or nickelodeon: DISNEY!
[x] car or motorcycle: car
[x] house party or club: both
[x] sing or dance: both
[x] freak or slow dance: both
[x] yahoo messenger or aim:aim
[x] google or ask jeeves?: google
____MISCELLANEOUS____
[x] can you swim?: yuppp
[x] whats your most embarrassing moment?: falling off my horse in jamacia
[x] what are you scared of?: the dark, clowns, being alone
[x] whats ur greatest accomplishment:i have no idea
[x] what kinda roof is over your head?: wtf
[x] do you like tomatoes?: yes
[x] how many TVs in the house?: 10
[x] how many phones?: 10 not including cell phones
[x] how many DVDs do you have?: a lot
[x] dentist visits: suck
[x] last doctor visit: yesterday
[x] last call: deirdra
[IN YOUR ROOM ]
What size of bed do you have?: single
Is your floor carpeted?: yes
If so, what color is it?: pink
Do you have posters on your walls? yes
Do you keep your room clean, or is there junk all over the floor?: such a mess
Are you allowed to eat in your room?: yes
[ HYGENE ]
How many times a day do you brush your teeth?: about 2
Do you take a shower daily?: yea basicly
Do you wear purfume/cologne?: sometimes
Do you wear deodorant?: of course
[ OUTSIDE ]
Do you go outside often?: i guess
Is your lawn green or brown?: green
Do you have a patio in the back?: a deck
Do you have a one or two (or more) car garage?: 4 car
How many trees are in your backyard?: a lot
[ ABOUT YOU ]
Are you male or female?: girly
Are you sure?: hm last time i checked
Do you have any piercings?: just ears
Are you single or married?: single
Do you like your name?: sure
Do you like lotion? Chapstick?: both
Do you shave your legs?: cheaaaa
[ MISC. ]
Is the sky really blue, or is it white with blue clouds?: i dont care
Did that last question confuse you?: hm no
Do you eat chocolate often? eh
Do you have a job?: no
Do you like it?: ---
Is your computer slow?: no
Have you ever wondered why there is bark on trees?: no
When you kick a tree, does it bruise the tree?: who cares
Why do cats cover their poop and such?: because there nice
What do you hear right now?: ben talking
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[07 Feb 2005|11:41pm] |
okay im a slacker according to liz
ill start updating more
lets see wahts been going on
oh right
friday liz and i took mike out for his birthday
then jackie and them came over and we watched movies
saturday i went to the gym and got my hair cut and highlighted
then went to britt's sweet 16 at medevial times
so amazing
we yelled out heads off
then sunday worked on my bio project with liz and kim
then hung out with brian liz kim and matt for the super bowl
school wa sboring
had surgery prep
my teeth hurt
went to lizs to finish project
came home and talked to matt
made dinner
its exciting i know
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[03 Feb 2005|08:54pm] |
Okay i know i dont update "Like its my job" anymore
...im sorry haha
hm so nothing all that cool is going on i guess
went to the mall with liz today had some fun
tomorrow night i think liz and i are taking mike out to celebrate his birthday
saturday night is medeval times
and sunday i believe me are working on the bio project
this are starting to come full circle
and my life is almost exactly where i want it to be
ok thats a lie
its getting there though
and im a happier person because of it
matt fink is taking me to the sweetheart dance...oh yea man
i have now gaged my cartilage piercing to an 18...im cool right
surgery is coming up again soon
that wont be fun
i love my stacey.
i just do.
shes my slut.
but i love her.
i broke my toe.
i fell down the steps.
what can i say?
i lack the ability to do anything without being clumsy.
the return of the shower mat is coming soon.
when ken stops being lazy that is.
well i think after the purse.
then the mat.
then its good.
computer is back to up and running.
i give it a month.
anyone wanna bet me?
peace fuckers
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